General

When you're a feeder like me who could never be happy in a "normal" relationship, the pool of potential partners is tiny. But I wouldn't change my sexual preference for all the money in the world. BHMS are awesome!

I feel sorry for your dog.

Feedees WANT to be fat, very, very badly, but in many cases will keep themselves skinny, hungry, and unhappy because they want a feeder of the desired gender to get turned on by seeing them gain, and to love them and take care of them when they're a SSBBP. My irl feedee got up to 275 on purpose in college, but lost the weight because he wanted a female feeder to find him attractive. He had to wait more than 20 years before he found me.

I find "normal" sexuality, the thin ideal, and dieting extremely disgusting.

Not exactly disgusted with myself but I was sort of an avoider for a long time. Childhood programming and good ol' fashioned Catholic shame that it was wrong or weird. But of course the wrongness is part of the draw, isn't it? At least for me. After I fully embraced it there was no turning back.

Not disgusted, just embarrassed when it comes to my desire to get fat myself (thanks to my father who scolded me for being a chubby kid).

But in my taste in women (chubby to somewhat fat), I'm neither disgusted nor ashamed.

Getting used to my interest might be a better way to express my relationship with my feederism kinks. Find them to be the most erotic and fiery ones I ever had.

I feel kinda guilty. The objectification and sexually orientated relationships seem loveless and shallow. In where your attraction relies solely on how heavy your partner is.
Then again, when I think with my nut, I really couldn't give a shit.

Never once did I ever feel guilty or disgusted with my preference for fat people or for being fat. I have only felt disgusted by intolerant people who narrowly believe that only thinness is attractive and acceptable.

Definitely, yes.

It's really hard not to look at how far I've come weight-wise and how far I'm willing to go and not feel intimidated by it. Like, I know what it'll mean to my health. Then I get even slightly horny, and the pros quickly begin to outweigh the cons as I begin to kinda feel intoxicated by my kink.

Usually I'm kinda increasingly growing to learn to just go with it. Just quelling the nagging voices that say otherwise.