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growing up a fat man in a skinny body9 months

from the moment I could remember I have always wanted to be fat. all my life I was skinny as a stick. up to 2009, I weighed 158 at 18 years old. now I weigh 217 at 25. it is easier to gain because of my age but I really want to be 300 pounds. I would love to hear if there is anyone else that shares my story.

growing up a fat man in a skinny body9 months

I grew up skinny as a kid, but always wanted to be fat. I was always fascinated whenever I saw a really fat kid - wondering what it would be like to be so big, and how much I would have to eat to get to his size.

I stayed thin, kept my gainer fantasies to myself through my teens and my early twenties. I did try a short stint of gaining around my mid twenties, but found out that I wasn't ready - I wasn't being accepting enough of how I was looking as I was putting on weight, and wasn't quite prepared for the fatigue that came with carrying the extra weight.

It wasn't until I was in my early thirties that I came into a means of going through with actually gaining to a size I'll be happy with. I came to accept myself a bit more physically and committed to gaining.

I feel a lot happier now, I think, despite having to give up some things that I liked to do physically. I used to work out for about nearly 12 years of my life, fairly regularly, and the change of intentionally getting fat wasn't comfortable at first, but I chalk that up to the discomfort of changing long standing habits.

growing up a fat man in a skinny body9 months

I do! I was a stick and bones kid and remember I was jealous of others that had belly's cuz I sure as hell didn't. lol

Over the last 17 years since I've been out on my own after college I've dabbled with stuffing myself as I liked making my belly bigger and and looking fatter. And I still do. The last 6 years in 30's I learned how to remain healthy and stuff myself stupid once a day for that glorious feeling of being full and feeling fat.

This year though I'm changing all that. I'm going for the golden fat belly award (lol) and pursuing my dream of a beach ball like belly. smiley

End of the day - I want my belly to be trying to burst out of my snowboard jacket after i have to suck it in and struggle to zip it up smiley I guess I'll also know how tough that jacket and zipper really are. haha

growing up a fat man in a skinny body5 months

I was skinny in elementary school and then I got fat for a couple years in middle school before I hit my growth spurt. I felt terrible at the time, but looking back on it, I was just insecure. I loved eating back then and I love it now. I've started getting a little fat and I can definitely see myself getting bigger over the next few years. It will be interesting to transition from being a skinny guy to being a fat guy.

growing up a fat man in a skinny body5 months

I am a masochist sexually with many men irl.

The IDEA of deliberate weight gain totally excites me daily.

I like the transformative aspect of "hot girl" to "fat pig".

Physically I am yet to make this a reality.

I watch bbw, ssbw porn and gainer girls on You Tube often.

I imagine myself as all of them but wont let go of my extreme self control.

I gain a few pounds then panic and lose it all.

I have been stuck in this cycle for years.

growing up a fat man in a skinny body4 months

This kind of happened to me slowly over time. Been a huge fat admirer for as long as I can remember (probably when I was around 11 or 12), and fast forward several years and I got into the idea of feederism and making someone fatter. I think the lack of actually engaging in feederism made me sort of project the idea onto myself maybe two or three years ago: what if instead of making someone else fatter, I just started gaining weight myself?

Im still very much at odds with it, I still want to stay thin and be able to get around in life without any sort of negativity in regards to my appearence as I'm incredibly insecure. But every now and then I think about being double my current weight and it's something I desperately desire. It's going to take quite the courage/encouragement for me to even get near that level, though I have unintentionally gained close to 20lbs since then, and I've been loving it and hating it at the same time for the same reasons.


Sigh....fat is too good...

growing up a fat man in a skinny body4 months

ForSomeTime:
This kind of happened to me slowly over time. Been a huge fat admirer for as long as I can remember (probably when I was around 11 or 12), and fast forward several years and I got into the idea of feederism and making someone fatter. I think the lack of actually engaging in feederism made me sort of project the idea onto myself maybe two or three years ago: what if instead of making someone else fatter, I just started gaining weight myself?

Im still very much at odds with it, I still want to stay thin and be able to get around in life without any sort of negativity in regards to my appearence as I'm incredibly insecure. But every now and then I think about being double my current weight and it's something I desperately desire. It's going to take quite the courage/encouragement for me to even get near that level, though I have unintentionally gained close to 20lbs since then, and I've been loving it and hating it at the same time for the same reasons.


Sigh....fat is too good...


Reading through your posts, I identify a lot with you. Always had a fascination with fat people, and grew up as a bean pole. When I hit puberty, I directed my fascination towards women specifically getting fat, but over time that morphed into: "I should get fat too."

There are a few things standing in my way, and part of me feels like I should stay thin and fit so I can help my already-slim dating chances, and not get ostracized by the people I know on a day to day basis who might judge. Part of the reason I've been working nose to the grindstone on academics and saving money is so I can move away, hopefully meet a special girl who's into this too, and live prosperously with a good income and an expanding waistline.

I'm still skinny yet at 130lbs and I work out for now, but I am thoroughly convinced I'm a future fat guy.

growing up a fat man in a skinny body4 months

I grew up a skinny kid, then joined the military straight out of high school, always been unable to eat the way I would really like. Now I'm gaining and I'm loving it

growing up a fat man in a skinny body4 months

I agree with a lot of who has posted. Always a skinny guy and wanting to be bigger since college. I've gotten a beer belly at this point, but still want more meat on my bones and am starting to see a quicker gain into my early 30s.

growing up a fat man in a skinny body4 months

[quote]makemegrow:
I am a masochist sexually with many men irl.

The IDEA of deliberate weight gain totally excites me daily.

I like the transformative aspect of "hot girl" to "fat pig".

Physically I am yet to make this a reality.

I watch bbw, ssbw porn and gainer girls on You Tube often.

I imagine myself as all of them but wont let go of my extreme self control.

I gain a few pounds then panic and lose it all.

I have been stuck in this cycle for years.[/quote I can relate. I'm in the same boat.
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