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(nsfw) weight gain and masturbation addiction.4 months

Hi all,
Long time lurker but finally joined in order to post. I'm a female FA/feeder & occasional gainer having intentionally gained some weight on three separate occasions during my lifetime - including currently!

Isn't it weird how that switch turns on in your mind and suddenly you find yourself stuffing yourself with this, that, and the other, wriggling into tight clothes, and fondling yourself...
Not to mention suddenly looking so tiny and frustratingly slim in the mirror when a couple of weeks ago your self-image was completely different. It is remarkable, truly.

Anyway! I know that typically during these periods of time when I am gaining weight deliberately, I struggle to control my sexual urges more than usual. When not gaining I typically consume FA related material for at least 30 mins a day anyway, although it has to be said that it has been markedly more over the past couple of months, and I would put that down to having suffered a difficult bereavement recently and wanting to distract myself from negative feelings.

Subsequently, I am worried that I am using masturbation and sexual fat-related thoughts as an emotional crutch more and more often. Really, I'm just wondering if anyone has had any similar experiences and how they managed to limit their intake.

It's not affecting my sex life negatively, am still very happy with my beautiful partner and if anything feel more confident at the moment.
I do want to be able to enjoy my kink, it's a big part of who I am and something that I've only just really started to accept properly. That acceptance has caused me to desire participation in the community more and I think it's this issue, that our kink is so related to my sense of self and an evolving identity that makes it so hard for me to separate the need for healthy, affirmative social behaviour with a possibly destructive need to seek out anything that jiggles and spend the evening drooling. Tumblr - it's a blessing and a curse, basically.

I'd just really like to be able to free up some more time to do other things.
Any advice would be much appreciated! smiley

Also, apologies if I posted this in the wrong category!

(nsfw) weight gain and masturbation addiction.4 months

elise ffa:
Hi all,
Long time lurker but finally joined in order to post. I'm a female FA/feeder & occasional gainer having intentionally gained some weight on three separate occasions during my lifetime - including currently!

Isn't it weird how that switch turns on in your mind and suddenly you find yourself stuffing yourself with this, that, and the other, wriggling into tight clothes, and fondling yourself...
Not to mention suddenly looking so tiny and frustratingly slim in the mirror when a couple of weeks ago your self-image was completely different. It is remarkable, truly.

Anyway! I know that typically during these periods of time when I am gaining weight deliberately, I struggle to control my sexual urges more than usual. When not gaining I typically consume FA related material for at least 30 mins a day anyway, although it has to be said that it has been markedly more over the past couple of months, and I would put that down to having suffered a difficult bereavement recently and wanting to distract myself from negative feelings.

Subsequently, I am worried that I am using masturbation and sexual fat-related thoughts as an emotional crutch more and more often. Really, I'm just wondering if anyone has had any similar experiences and how they managed to limit their intake.

It's not affecting my sex life negatively, am still very happy with my beautiful partner and if anything feel more confident at the moment.
I do want to be able to enjoy my kink, it's a big part of who I am and something that I've only just really started to accept properly. That acceptance has caused me to desire participation in the community more and I think it's this issue, that our kink is so related to my sense of self and an evolving identity that makes it so hard for me to separate the need for healthy, affirmative social behaviour with a possibly destructive need to seek out anything that jiggles and spend the evening drooling. Tumblr - it's a blessing and a curse, basically.

I'd just really like to be able to free up some more time to do other things.
Any advice would be much appreciated! smiley

Also, apologies if I posted this in the wrong category!


I probably won't be any help. I will agree with you. I have always been a fat admirer with BBW and SSBBW. Recently I have started to appreciate BHM and find nothing more exciting than watching a video of fat people fucking.

I have always been big. I am currently 240 pounds and have decided to eat what I want. If I get bigger, that will be great.

Thinking about the BBW AND SSBBW I have enjoyed, and me being bigger, makes me horny - and I have been masturbating more frequently when I am not having sex with a partner.

Feeling all the soft flesh just makes me hornier. smiley I you like it, enjoy it!

(nsfw) weight gain and masturbation addiction.4 months

It's a very important outlet for you. Gaining weight on your own body gets you closer to your sexual fat fantasies so don't worry about some extra pounds. Look around, loads more fatties than ever before. You getting fatter won't upset the world, have another fattening snack.

(nsfw) weight gain and masturbation addiction.4 months

Just 3 weeks ago, I had lost 15 pounds after starting a diabetes diet and some new medication. And I was more unhappy than I can ever remember. I've eaten my way back up to my former weight and am once again fondling my body and masturbating whenever I can sneak in some time looking at SSSSBBWs on Tumblr. Meanwhile, the new medication is keeping my blood sugar in a very healthy range. So I'm pouring peanut butter and cheese in my mouth and will be 300 pounds before I know it...and I have no problem knowing I'll be masturbating more often than ever. Being a fatsexual gives me more joy than I ever knew I could experience. The only thing missing is a supersized SSBBW to eat with and share pleasure.

(nsfw) weight gain and masturbation addiction.4 months

SSBBW lover that's good to hear. One of the major causes of not gaining any more weight is Type 2 diabetes. It halts the conversion of food into body fat. Getting your blood sugar right through medication will allow you to gain weight. Eat as much as you want and use the medication to control your blood sugar. I know that's not what they advise but then they don't want you getting fatter.

Happiness comes first, so eat.

(nsfw) weight gain and masturbation addiction.4 months

I'm a fat gay male turned on by seeing pics and videos of fat guys masturbating and fucking. It's more of a turn on than watching muscle guys or suits. I think because I find fat men hot, I identify with them. For me, it's a confidence booster as well as a turn on. There's hardly a time I don't see an attractive fat guy and have to sneak off to a restroom and rub one out.

(nsfw) weight gain and masturbation addiction.4 months

JackSteven, thank you for the encouragement. I didn't know why I was having such a hard time gaining before I started the medication. Now I seem to be blowing up like a balloon, I'm eating healthy but very fattening food and lots of it, my fasting blood glucose is in the 90s for the first time, and I'm walking around in pants that are increasingly tight and getting visibly excited quite frequently. My wife is aware of the weight gain side effect of the medication, but she's not going to like where this is going as both she and our daughter are losing weight and they think I am too, but I'm actually on my way to 300 and I hope lots more. She is going to be so mad as I gain. But the fatter I get, the more turned on I am by it. She can live with it or not, I'm going to come out of the closet soon enough.

(nsfw) weight gain and masturbation addiction.4 months

Hi Elise, I'm sorry to hear about your bereavement and I hope you're doing ok. In terms of your questions, I don't know how helpful I can be other than to affirm, as you say, that (fat) sexuality waxes and wanes. If at this time in your life it's helping you as a form of self care, then perhaps you are being a little hard on yourself - especially if it's not negatively affecting your relationship/s or day to day life. I think there are less healthy, safe and enjoyable coping mechanisms for trauma, and if this is also helping you explore a part of your identity then perhaps it's also more positive than it appears.
In terms of trying to cut down, if that's something you want, you can use techniques for quitting addictions, or distract yourself with other pleasurable things - socialising or cooking..?
I hope this helps, even if it's just validating what you already know.

(nsfw) weight gain and masturbation addiction.4 months

I definitely know that switch you're talking about, Elise. I've felt it less often this year, but out-of-nowhere will come an urge to stuff myself or look at pictures of wobbly bellies. It's insatiable and a waste of time.

More willpower to just stop and go to sleep is the biggest thing for me. Also, being more social or getting more involved in my hobbies helps. Even so, if I encounter something by accident, I'll slip again. Fat people are just way too attractive, so it's really hard. Good luck finding the willpower to dedicate your time to whatever you like.