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did anyone else think that they were the only one?1 month

In middle school and high school, I used to put pillows in my clothes to see what I would look like if I gained weight. I thought I was the only person in the world who did that. I would only do it when I was home alone, with the drapes shut tight. I would ask our dog, "How do I look?" So appreciati.ve of her unconditional love and refusal to judge me. By my twenties, I really was a BBW, but I would still lie in bed with pillows over my stomach, fantasizing that they were part of my body. I only did that on nights my then-fiance was at his own apartment.
I thought I was the only feeder. I thought I was the only woman in the world who got turned on by the fantasy of taking a guy with a conventionally attractive male stripper-type body, lovingly cooking and baking for him and feeding him and watching him become obese, and haVing him actually ENJOY it.
Did anyone else think that they were the only feeder, the only feedee, the only person intentionally getting fat, the only guy who prefers women with cellulite, etc?
It was such a welcome discovery that there are many guys who want me to fatten them, I just wish that there was a female feeder for every hetero male feedee.

did anyone else think that they were the only one?1 month

Exactly my story. Used to stuff with pillows when little, always loved the fat female form, became a feeder/encourager as an adult, now a mutual feeder/gainer who loves the idea of letting go and growing fatter with a fat & gaining woman.

did anyone else think that they were the only one?1 month

Ha I thought I was closeted homosexual for the longest time. But nope. Turns out that I just like certain body types and imagining myself with that body type. It was the oddest thing to me then and had/have no idea where it came from.

To answer your question though, yes I did think I was "The Only One" and thought I was something that I wasn't (and am not) to try to explain it. So yes...and no? XD

As for your last sentence I agree.

"Female Feeders < Male Feedees" which is kind of depressing tbh lol.

did anyone else think that they were the only one?1 month

I came to appreciate fat rather late. By the time I decided to cut loose and deliberately gain I knew gainers, feeders and feedees existed. So I never thought I was alone in it.

did anyone else think that they were the only one?3 weeks

Yep exact same story here just im that guy that wanted to be fed into obesity!

did anyone else think that they were the only one?3 weeks

ReeCalor:
I, too, wish that there were a female feeder for every hetero male feedee. Alas, the deck is stacked against us.
I'm a hypersexual with a lot of free time. At least we've got those factors working in the BHMS'/male feedees' favor.

did anyone else think that they were the only one?3 weeks

As I child I would have never figured that others like me exist. Thanks to the internet and forums like this one that's a thing of the past.

did anyone else think that they were the only one?3 weeks

I also used to stick pillows in my tee-shirt to look fat when I was'n t yet fat. Ruben's paintings provided me with my first BBW pictures. I now think they are way too thin. smiley

did anyone else think that they were the only one?3 weeks

Lol, this is literally all of us who discovered our love of fat as teens. Because anything that isn't normal or one of the well defined fetishes is weird and different and not something we can talk about to other people. On top of that we prefer a look that is not only looked down on but that we're told is unhealthy and bad for us.

did anyone else think that they were the only one?3 weeks

GainingLear:
Lol, this is literally all of us who discovered our love of fat as teens.


Lol yeah pretty much. I wonder why, just out of curiosity, my brain decided "That. Right there. Is the body type you like. Oh yeah, and you also have the desire to have that body type."
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