This is fascinating to me, I have had very similar feelings in regards to this before. Someone once told me to do a bucket list, and if 'get fat' is on your bucket list, do all the other things that getting fat would hinder first, for example, hiking in mountains. Darrin above also has a very good point, once you're married or with someone, you don't have to worry massively about what you look like, cos you're not looking to attract anyone new to you. If your partner is the right person for you, then they won't mind about your fetish or gaining.
I hope that if you do gain eventually though, feel free to share it on here, I'm sure plenty of people would love to see your progress, and good luck with whatever you decide to do =)
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