Since I was very young I always had a curiosity about what I now know to be feedism.
I have memories of eating until my belly stuck out, sticking toy food under my shirt to simulate weight gain and being way more interested in books and TV shows that involved fat characters, gaining or food.
I remember drawing fatter characters and characters with bellies at home
I even once had a friend I would openly overeat around as when I visited him his family always had plenty of food around. We would often see who could eat the most, rather innocently.
As I got older I'd start playing with belts to make my small belly look bigger and once inadvertently gained to 98 lbs by eating too much when I should have been around 80 for that height.
I distinctly remember one boy calling me a "pot-bellied pig" as a joke when my school shirt got tight around belly. At that moment part of me was embarrassed but another part realised this all linked in somehow.
Fast forward a few years and I discover the internet, find BBW sites, gaining contest sites and eventually set up my first profile on 43things to start my first gain as a gainer
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