Hardly a new topic, but I’m on the fence about gaining again. Previously went from 120 - 170 in less than six months, both from intentional gaining and struggling with an eating disorder. Stopped due to other reasons but as much as the weight was fun, the dysphoria was too much at the time. Also struggled with reactions of friends and family. Now, years later I am in a much better place mentally, post top surgery, no longer fighting an eating disorder every day, and my feelings about gaining have changed slightly but I can’t get this out of my head. Thinking about trying for a minimal gain or even a single stuffing session and seeing how I feel based on that, but I keep holding off because I’m worried about everything that this will open up (mostly from external sources in my life) if I like it.
Not really sure what I’m asking here, because at this point I think I might have made up my mind, but it helps to post. For a long time I thought my interest in gaining was just a manifestation of dysphoria, and maybe it is, but that doesn’t make me want it less.
Not really sure what I’m asking here, because at this point I think I might have made up my mind, but it helps to post. For a long time I thought my interest in gaining was just a manifestation of dysphoria, and maybe it is, but that doesn’t make me want it less.
2 years