There's a lot to enjoy about being supah fat

I love how much room I take up when I sit down, particularly on a bench.

Some stuckage stuff is more fun that I had imagined.

The feeling of my blubber jiggling or wagging when I walk.

Just the feeling of gravity - feeling how my body presses down when I lie down. Also, how soft I am. )

Teleworking usually allows for plentiful grazing through the day.

Yep. There's a bunch of fantasies that I have where I lose all control of gaining weight. Being kidnapped and forced to get fatter was one of them.

Yes, especially in the summer.

Tokyo Vice by Jake Adelstein was a fantastic read.

Recently re-read Clive Barker's Cabal, which was turned into the movie Nightbreed. Didn't care for the movie much (the theatrical nor the director's cut), as I felt it just couldn't compare to the ideas and images I had when I first read the book. I really enjoyed his Books of Blood series as well.

Massages are good.

I do some guided meditation - you can find a bunch of really good ones on youtube with a simple search.

When I was thinner, long walks were a great way to calm your mind.

I honestly think it was ever since I was a little kid, but I waited to go through with it until I was in my 20s (and wasn't ready). I needed to wait until my mid 30's that I wanted to go through with fattening myself up.

Consensual fantasies > moral outrage

Thanks for your input, tho. But thought policing is so not German this year. Or any year.

Learn to accept and embrace your body and the changes and don't have a rigid idea of what your ideal growth will be and look like.

It's not easy to accept yourself as you're changing, especially when you're going against what society deems is attractive. You need to learn to be a bit more self sufficient and knowledgeable in knowing what makes you happy, no matter what - and block out the haters.

Sooooo, I'm starting to come to terms with this fantasy a bit.

I think I always kind of was, as I had a lot of fantasies where I'd get so big and huge that I'd be immobile - but the fantasy would end there.

Now that I've gone through with gaining and having gained as much as I have - and also my age as well, it took me a while to become "comfortable" or at least confront the reality of what I've been doing to my health. The fantasy however, I'm on the verge of helplessness and I get "pushed over the edge" as far as my appetite and my gaining goes.

I live in Canada and they just legalized weed - I think that having that to fall back on with some of the more painful/uncomfortable aspects of being so obese makes things a bit easier to come to terms with. Doesn't hurt that it gives me major munchies to help me plump myself up a bit more.