I can totally relate to this,having suffered with 'foot in mouth' syndrome most of my life
Only in the last five months have I found a lovely BBW who both understands and tolerates my faults,after a long catalog of self inflicted failures.
Please don't give up trying.

My GF is 65 inches tall but 66 inches round the belly,so I would say she JUST qualifies as SSBBW

From 2000 to late 2007 I had a roller coaster enthusiast GF
She was 5'4 and 295lbs and fitted on some rides ok,a few were too tight,Megafobia at Oakwood Wales and the Big one at Blackpool,along with the old Grand National were very tight,anyone over 300 might struggle unless they were very tall,Nemesis at Alton Towers was difficult too.

Totally agree with this,but I have found that it is important not to over emphasize this as it can be off putting for some partners,especially those who have had a battle previously accepting their size/weight.

30.5 for me,I vary between 28 and 34

Well,I know about the bumbling fool bit.
You are a very deep thinker,like me.
But where I would make a simple comment,you have turned it into a three act play...
Maybe that ,more than your physical attributes ,would put the ladies off..

I take it you look for both BBW and BHM then lol

I have a different liking for numbers
On a day out,I keep a mental note of how many nice BBWs I have glanced at (nothing more than a glance,as don't want to be noticed)and SSBBW (rarely seen )Seen 30 BBW today and 3 SSBBW,just while going about my normal business,makes the day go better

I couldn't continue a relationship with this lady as I didn't see eye to eye with her family,but we continued an online friendship for another year,I only spoilt it by asking her to do something that she clearly couldn't do without causing uproar,huge mistake,friendship over

The furthest I have travelled is 300 miles from home,I was lucky to have a reliable car that never let me down.
Even the UK members are well spread about,
LesLumieres,I feel your pain in losing someone,never to speak with them again,as that happened to me once,I put an end to something wonderful by making a stupid decision,it was a steep learning curve and I should not have been so hasty.