Chapter 1 - the beginning

Ever since I can remember food has always been overly exciting to me. And who am I? My name's Toni! Yes, I'm a girl and my name is Toni lol.
Anyways, you know how people jokingly say "food is life"? Well for me that is a pretty darn accurate statement! And when you look at my 5'4, 255 lb frame, you definitely will see that that's true heh.

Now I'm 22 years old, but I remember whenever my family and I went on vacations when I was a kid the most exciting part of them was always the food. I loved nothing more than going out and having a nice, big meal. We'd get appetizers, soda, extra big portions..all stuff I wasn't able to enjoy during an average dinner at home! You see, my parents weren't exactly super strict on what I ate specifically, but HOW much I ate. It was always one snack, one soda, one this, one that, blah blah blah... Basically, this led me to binging whenever I got the chance, which you'll hear more about later on down the road!

I don't exactly know why I've been so obsessed with food my whole life. Of course everyone enjoys a good meal, but it feels like I've always been way more interested in eating than others around me. I'm an only child and I guess you could say food was always there for me when I was growing up. It's not like I didn't have friends, but to me food wasn't just something you ate three times a day. It was something that I wanted 24/7. The satisfaction of shoving delicious, mouth watering foods, however unhealthy, into my mouth just simply doesn't compare to anything else!

One of my friendships when I was younger even started because of food. Well, kinda. I met this girl when I was in 4th grade named Emily. She was an average sized girl and by no means did she love food as much as I did. By the time 5th grade rolled around her and I started hanging out at each other's houses. To this day I'll never forget my reaction when I went to her house for the first time and she said "just eat as much as you want". Her mom didn't say no, if anything she actually encouraged me to eat whatever I'd like. For example the time when she offered me a SECOND grilled cheese for lunch. Because god forbid if I was at home and asked my mom for one more there's no way I could possibly still be hungry, it was just an automatic "no, you don't need another". I started going to her house every Friday after school because I was so ecstatic that I found a safe haven where I could just eat and eat and eat. Of course I enjoyed Emily's company, but all the food I was getting to consume was definitely a HUGE plus! From the moment I walked into her door until the moment my mom came to pick me up I would literally be shoveling as much food down my throat as I possibly could. The best part was that she never judged me for it either. If anything she used to jokingly make fun of me and it just kind of became known around her house that I was a pig lol. I'll also never forget these delicious home-cooked dinners her mom used to make, that I'd have legit minimum 3 portions of.

It was just a great feeling being in her home. Even compared to my other friend's. A lot of the other parents were like mine and didn't allow us to just go in the cabinets whenever we pleased like her parents did, or even worse the only snacks they had were mostly healthy snacks. I swear if her mom and my mom switched places I would have been obese years ago!

Well that's all the time I have now.. until next time! :)