chapter 17

The day we were discharged from the hospital was scary and exciting at the same time. I wasn't allowed to pick up the baby while my surgical scar healed. Jean-luc would be there to help me but his size limited his mobility. I was honestly a little worried. We had Michelle pick us up in her SUV. She had the car seat and Jean-luv could get in and out of her car easily. I was shocked how weak I felt as I got into the car. I really hoped this baby was a good sleeper because I felt exhausted.

We settled in and Jean-luc was wonderful. He carried the baby to me when it was time to nurse him. Like his parents, baby Henry liked to eat. He cried for my breast about every hour and 20 minutes. I loved this time with him. I could sit there and look at him peacefully nursing all day. Jean-luc changed all of those first diapers and cooked for us too.

On our first full day at home, my milk fully came in and my engorged breasts no longer fit in my DD nursing bra. I would have to order a new one soon. Jean-luc reminded me that I had taken hormone pills to grow breasts and now they were huge. I wondered if the hormones contributed to me gaining so much weight and to my now huge boobs. I looked up at the maternity photo on the mantle and I did look beautiful. I loved my new body. I had sent Kelly a copy of my maternity photos and she said it was beautiful and I shouldn't need any more hormones.

For my two week Doctor appointment, we decided to let Steph take me and Jean-luc would check in on the cafe. It was very hard for him to walk into the clinic building and to the office. Hopefully today I would have clearance to at least pick Henry up. Steph came in with me and took care of Henry. I hoped he would wait until the appointment was over to nurse. I still wasn't ready for publicly nursing my son yet. Not with these huge boobs that felt like boulders.
I figured I had probably lost significant weight, especially since the baby was almost 10 pounds. I was surprised when I stepped on scale and it read 228 pounds. I might be fat for a long time. Everything looked good and I was allowed to pick Henry up but I had to be careful.

By the time we got to the car, Henry was crying and my breasts were about to explode. We sat in the car and I awkwardly nursed my baby. Stephanie commented on how big my boobs were now. I laughed and said I still couldn't believe it. I had huge boobs and I was fat. I never thought I would say either of those things about myself. She said I was beautiful and I looked happy.

When we got home, Jean-luc was there. He had gone to the cafe but didn't stay long. He wanted to be back when we got home. I told him I was allowed to pick up Henry now. I also told him how heavy his non pregnant wife was now. He just said that I was perfect. I cuddled up with him and rubbed his big beautiful belly. He said he knows we need to be healthy for Henry and we could work together for him to lose weight and me to stay healthy. I couldn't imagine giving up our stuffing sessions and making love to him with a full belly. We would have to work on this plan. Maybe we could still do that from time to time.

Jean-luc had really stepped up with healthy meals and trying to be more active. By the time Henry was 3 months old, Jean-luc could easily fit in his nice pants. I hadn't had much luck with losing weight. I wore a maternity dress to Henry's baptism. We had several friends and family members at the church where we had been married. My family was very surprised at how big I had grown with my pregnancy. I had huge breasts, a flabby belly and a big butt with wide hips. I looked like someone who had been fat for a long time. The picture of Jean-luc, me and Henry would be the next one we put up in our home. We were so happy together.

The return to work was really hard. I was still nursing Henry every 2 hours or so but we had him take a bottle of breast milk so that he could do it while I was gone. Jean-luv was going to stay home with him for the first couple of weeks and I was only working 4 days per week at the office. Pumping milk at the office was a pain but I kept at it. I struggled with my energy levels and found myself hitting the vending machine in the afternoon. Jean-luv was making such healthy meals for us now, I was making decadent food choices in the afternoons. I was just so tired all of the time now.

Things got easier as Henry got older. Jean-luc continued to lose weight and I lost a few pounds but I had gone back to staying stuffed all day while I was at work so Jean-luc's healthy fare wasn't helping me as much. By Henry's first birthday, Jean-luc was down to 480 pounds and he was getting around much better. I was still over 200 pounds and hadn't toned up much at all after having Henry. We were still having an occasional stuffing and sex session but most of the time we just made love when we could grab the time. Now we both had good size bellies and they bounced on each other when we weren't stuffed. Jean-luc never wanted a nanny. He watched Henry while I was at work and then he'd head in to the cafe for a few hours after dinner to check on everything. Now that Henry was 1, Jean-luc would take him in the stroller to visit the cafe. He wanted to teach young Henry Pierre (named after his father) how successful you can be when you follow your passion.

Jean-luc stayed around 400 pounds and kept his round belly and triple chins. My weight stayed around 230 pounds and my breasts stayed size DD. We were fortunate to move into a small two bedroom condo near the cafe. The cafe continued to be successful. Our family was so blessed. Little Henry looked like his handsome father. Silky dark hair and chocolate brown eyes. Jean-luc was teaching him some French and he was a delightful boy. I'm so glad that I stumbled into that cafe all those years ago and watched the handsome owner grow before my eyes. Now we have grown the perfect family together.