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Age: 21
Location: Australia

Fat Mood

Monday 02nd November 2009 by Maximum

Hello Again All,

I'm in a fat mood tonight, a very fat mood in fact...

lol these are the times when i think "screw it, i'm gonna gain and get as big as i want" then they pass and i think about me fat in the context of reality again and chicken out...

Its like this alot lately, though the fat moods are becoming more frequent and longer, i never used to think about it at all, until i found this site and finally admitted to myself what i've been denying all along...

I want to be fat, i want to be big, i want to be soft, i want to be cuddly, i want to be warm and i want to eat and not think twice about it.

But at the same time i want to be all the generic things, healthy, fit, sexy, good job, well off finanically, a wife and family, etc...

For some reason it seems like i've got to chose one or the other, like i know i'll never have both... Do i give into selfishness and live only to please myself or do i strive to make a better life for myself and make it worthwhile?

Sorry to anyone who takes that the wrong way, i'm not imposing this idea on u, its just how it works in my head, mix of upbringing and media...

The biggest thing really is family, i don't really care about anything else but i'd hate to let down or disappoint my family, or make them not like me...

hmmm, anyways, i can feel this fat mood already wearing off, which is a shame cause i was kinda hopping to pig out, oh well, will have to wait for the next one...

Max Out

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fustratedAdmira 10 months ago
I feel exactly the same way... if only the fat mood would stick or disappear completely. Humm, I know by experience that disappearing just isnt gonna happen.

If only the fat mood would then stick. Would save the headake (& heartake) :|