Maximum wrote:
I am incapable of initiating conversation, even with people that I have known for years, it sucks cause it makes people think you're stuck up or something and not interested in hanging out while I'm secretly begging for someone to save me from my own loneliness.
Even if someone makes the first move I still struggle to reciprocate, I just have so much inner fear about screwing the whole thing up.
I can totally relate to this,having suffered with 'foot in mouth' syndrome most of my life
Only in the last five months have I found a lovely BBW who both understands and tolerates my faults,after a long catalog of self inflicted failures.
Please don't give up trying.