joined 2 years
I feel extremely guilty! And extremely glad that my bf/feedee wants to stop gaining when he gets to 300 lbs (a relatively slim BHM size) and that he wants to be fit and fat. I used to weigh 297 lbs, and I couldn't handle the health problems. Even though I have slimmed down to 180-something, the aches and pains are still so bad that I am planning a religious pilgrimage that involves a 70-mile trek across Germany. (Google annual pilgrimage Our Lady of Altotting; the cathedral is full of canes and crutches left behind by people who were miraculously healed!) I refuse to fatten a partner to more than 365 lbs; if Alex decides he wants to be immobile, we may end up as platonic friends who used to date, like Jerry and Elaine on "Seinfeld." I don't identify with sadistic feeders who like seeing their feedees struggle to move and breathe and develop health problems and total dependency on another person. I want to run 10 KS with Alex and smirk at all the people who wouldn't have thought that a guy who weighs 300 lbs could possibly be that fit. Alex WANTS to be fattened; I never tried to fatten my ex, who was not a feedee and hated being fat. (Although I definitely thought about it--a lot.) Being a Christian makes it even harder--gluttony is a sin, premarital sex is a sin, "Have you ever actually Sat down and read (the Bible)? Technically, we're not allowed to go to the bathroom!"--Rev. Lovejoy, "The Simpsons," LOL.