fatsteve:
I think my fetish quietly crept up on me. I was vaguely attracted to children at school who were overweight but I did not really do anything about it. Certainly I did not put pillows up my shirt to simulate obesity. It must have been at puberty when I found the idea of being overweight compuslively attractive. It is not that I fanced other people who were fat, I definitely wanted to be fat myself. Once the idea was in my head I could not get rid of it. I just desparately wanted to be bigger. I tried to talk myself out of it, thinking it was a passing phase, and for a tiime it would go away, only to return again with vengeance; stronger that it was before. When I was fifteen I decided to take matters into my own hands and started putting on weight deliberately and have done so ever since so now I would be described as super obese.
I think even before puberty and before any sexual feelings.I remember reading 'Charlie and the Chocolate Factory' and wishing so much that I could be Augustus Gloop.I think my fetish quietly crept up on me. I was vaguely attracted to children at school who were overweight but I did not really do anything about it. Certainly I did not put pillows up my shirt to simulate obesity. It must have been at puberty when I found the idea of being overweight compuslively attractive. It is not that I fanced other people who were fat, I definitely wanted to be fat myself. Once the idea was in my head I could not get rid of it. I just desparately wanted to be bigger. I tried to talk myself out of it, thinking it was a passing phase, and for a tiime it would go away, only to return again with vengeance; stronger that it was before. When I was fifteen I decided to take matters into my own hands and started putting on weight deliberately and have done so ever since so now I would be described as super obese.
As puberty hit and I developed sexual desires it was TOTALLY about fat.There was one very fat kid at school and I used to get so turned on when we were changing/showering after PE....somewhat embarrassing!
So,basically as long as I can remember!
8 years