Petty9x:
My fantasy is including to let the feedee suffer, let feel him pain after he is stuffed and ballooned, maybe helpless. I have no explanation why this fantasy aroses me. I learned to accept this as a part of me, even I do not understand that.
But my head sais that`s just crazy, ugly and against everything I learned to be right.
There is nothing wrong with you at all! You are who you are, and there are plenty of guys who would love to live this fantasy with you.
Me, for example.
I would say that this is not a question of what is right or moral but more about you finding joy where you find joy -- which in this case is in the vision of a man suffering from your helping him discover his true nature as well.
I wish you the best in making this come true for you.
And don't feel bad about it. Enjoy it, and feel pleasure.