Gaining

Difficulty accepting that i'm a feedee

As one suggestion, if you have the opportunity try writing some feeding scenes, with different variants on what is going on, feeder, etc. Be brave in taking chances in writing, go places you think aren't you, and generally explore your reaction to various corners of those.

Once you understand what this means to you in more detail, you'll be in more control and it may not seem so hard.
6 years