Fat experiences

voluptuouslover:
Loved your writing Newballoon! Your story had me going….I was thinking you were going to say that one of the skinny ladies helping you was in awe of your plush physique….and was a Feeder/FA.
Actually, how do you know if they didn’t admire your body and Fat. A lot of women do like much bigger men…..they may be dreaming about what they saw right now.

fanedfox:
I recently had to get dressed up for the funeral of a former neighbor and friend. I hadn't worn my dress shirt or sport coat since before the pandemic. I couldn't button the collar and I couldn't button the sport coat. I bought the sport coat a couple of years ago at a thrift store, my old sport coats that I had to wear to work for many years were way too small.
I also saw myself in a photo of a meeting I was attending, I looked really heavy! Wow, I'm really getting fat!

NewBalloon:
Hello, everyone! I'm new to the site. I'm a 6-foot tall male and have gained over 100lbs in the last three years, going from a fit four-workouts-a-week (and as a former fat kid/teen, fittest in my life) 175lbs up to an accidental, then intentional but temporary 307lbs (heaviest ever) before life events caused me to drop down to my current weight of 275lbs. I haven't been below 270lbs since gaining.

Obviously, I'm not the heaviest I've ever been. But today something happened to me that made me feel fatter than ever and I'm afraid/excited that it may have completely altered my self image. I guess I'm just hoping for feedback, shared experiences, or thoughts on what took place and how, right now, I feel it really changed things. But I don't know how yet...and I don't really know if it was a good experience or not.

Today I went to be fit for a suit. The employee who helped me was a young, short, and skinny young woman and the seamstress who made notes for alterations was a little older, tall, and slim. At first I underestimated my jacket size, asking to see a 44 when I needed a 50. Then I asked to see a size 42 pants but had to go up to 46 easily. When I asked for a shirt she took my measurements -- as I stood there I felt huge and heavy. She went and found a shirt, I put everything on and stepped up onto the viewing platform surrounded by panoramic full-body mirrors.

I don't know if it's because of the fit of the suit, or the look, or the tucking in of the shirt (I don't often since gaining), or the mirrors, or the two slender women standing beside me...I saw myself in a new light and to be honest, I freaked myself out.

I felt big and round and wide and like I was exposed. My love handles were so wide and pronounced even sucking in my gut seemed vain and pointless next to my whole silhouette. I didn't know how round my waist was or how padded and fat my back has become. I'm a little panicked, a very excited, but I feel like I've misunderstood what people's perception of me has been for so long. I'm 275, down from 315...so what must I have REALLY looked like before? I feel like a veil has been lifted and I don't know if I'm going to diet hard and try to drop it...or, since I'm here already, push things further...maybe lose later? I don't think my mental image of myself kept up with my gain.

Has anyone else freaked themselves out with their body? What did you do?

Tl;Dr: Suit fitting made me feel my size like never before and I'm both excited/terrified of what happens to my self image from here.

NewBalloon:
There was alot to like about those sensations...alot of shock as well. It's exciting but there are some doubts in the back of my mind too. When you saw yourself in the video or the elevator, how did you react? Was there any panic? Before I would've told you I never really noticed my weight in public but not now...

Bicepsual:
It takes some time for you to accept that you're the "fattie" of the group - that you're always the biggest in group photos. It can be startling at first.

But once that is normalized, the feedee will have no problem piling it on. Being "bigger" will eventually become part of their self-identity. Their openness about their gluttony will also change as there's no way or use in attempting to hide it any more.