i know I was exactly in your place years ago..I was a model and a serious gym rat...I loved it but I couldn't understand why I had this urge to eat big and pack on the weight and i had to deal with those question? How would my my family and friends react to the bigger me? what would strangers think of me? was I crazy? Did i have an eating disorder. After racking my brain i discovered that i was just a guy who loved to eat and didn't mind getting fat. to answer the other questions I had to just gain the weight to find out the answer...I gained 25 pounds and still didn't get the reactions that i wanted, so i gained another 25 pounds..what i found was some people are mean for no reason, but along i way i discovered along the way that what others really thought didn't matter much as this was something that I wanted for myself.
15 years
