So, lately my thoughts shifted to a girl from high school a few times. I know/knew her since kindergarten days. The more I think about it the more I question some things. That's why I'm interested in some other opinions.
The key memory which got this thinking going was when we were 15/16 years old. It was break in school, and we arrived at the classroom for the next lesson. I sat down in front of it. She then sat herself on my lap, although it was more like in front of me between my legs. She leaned back and I hugged her from behind. We stayed the whole break like that. So if I'm remembering right she initiated it. I'd say we were always pretty close, but at the same time also kinda distanced.
Anyway. Fast-forward a few years (the last years of school) we were very distanced. Only some neutral chatting when we encountered. I don't know how it got there, nor did I care or think about it in a serious manner. I've only had some thoughts in between. We were just friends. She had her ''gang'' and I mine. I couldn't really find liking in her ''gang'' same as she with mine, I think. That may be the reason. Who knows. At that time I'd have descibed her as a very cold personality. At least that's what I saw from her.
But now, a few years later, that I ''have the ability'' to think in a romantic and sexual manner, what I definitely didn't have at the age of 15/16 and also not with 17, I ask myself if there was more to it... From both of us...
Of course you can't really judge the situation, because you don't know the whole story and all the little bits and pieces, but I wanna hear what you have to say and gain some different perspectives from you who have different stories, different experiences and different lives.
Thanks for ''listening''.
The key memory which got this thinking going was when we were 15/16 years old. It was break in school, and we arrived at the classroom for the next lesson. I sat down in front of it. She then sat herself on my lap, although it was more like in front of me between my legs. She leaned back and I hugged her from behind. We stayed the whole break like that. So if I'm remembering right she initiated it. I'd say we were always pretty close, but at the same time also kinda distanced.
Anyway. Fast-forward a few years (the last years of school) we were very distanced. Only some neutral chatting when we encountered. I don't know how it got there, nor did I care or think about it in a serious manner. I've only had some thoughts in between. We were just friends. She had her ''gang'' and I mine. I couldn't really find liking in her ''gang'' same as she with mine, I think. That may be the reason. Who knows. At that time I'd have descibed her as a very cold personality. At least that's what I saw from her.
But now, a few years later, that I ''have the ability'' to think in a romantic and sexual manner, what I definitely didn't have at the age of 15/16 and also not with 17, I ask myself if there was more to it... From both of us...
Of course you can't really judge the situation, because you don't know the whole story and all the little bits and pieces, but I wanna hear what you have to say and gain some different perspectives from you who have different stories, different experiences and different lives.
Thanks for ''listening''.
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