i totally see this now - it is like hitting a critical mass, and now it seems to just happen on its own. my appetite keeps my belly fueled, my metabolism is converting all the calories to fat, and it's almost a self- perpetuating system!

i keep thinking, "better slow down," but it never happens!

this is all hitting very close to home this week, lol!

when i initially read this, i thought it was a wild exaggeration. to get to 300 lbs seemed like it would take serious, dedicated effort...

...but now i find i am already a little over 260, and 300 seems like a milestone that is not quite as far away as i originally though!

oh my...

certain positions and things are more challenging, but there's still lots of options. i think the most noticeable impact is just how out of shape i am - i get tired and winded a lot more easily now it seems, whereas i used to be more like the energizer bunny (perhaps i am dating myself with this reference? lol)

there have been a lot! not only have i gotten out of shape and fat, but i moved cities - when i go back "home" and i see people, often friends that i would work out with at the gym, it is always mind-blowing for them. the variety of comments is pretty wide, depending on the personality of the individual. some won't bring themselves to call you "fat" even when you obviously are! lol! where others are comfortable enough with me, they will squeeze my belly (to see if it's real?) and joke about what a hog i have become.

my extended family is a little more concerned than amused, but other than a few questions like, "so when are you going to renew your gym membership?" they have mostly avoided the elephant in the room.



my lady di was a ssbbw when i met her maybe a year and a half ago. i think she was around 450 lbs at that time, and she gained a little weight while we were dating and indulging. she has a physical job, so she has been trying to lose some weight, and succeeding.

now she talks about how i am finding the weight she is loosing, lol. since i hit 250 lbs she has been very vocal about seeing me make it to 300. she has also been a little more forceful in what i eat, when, and how much - especially since i have been working from home due to covid-19.

i am not complaining at all, mind you!

this was my experience too (you can see the results in my pics over time). i used to be a fit, lean gym regular, 150 lbs at my leanest. now, a couple of years later, i have just passed 250 lbs.

this whole path of gluttony is a slippery slope, and now that i have gone this far, stopping or reversing it seems unimaginable!

my belly isn't an erogenous area for me really, i don't think. i think the feeling of being stuffed, and the thought of that, and the association with sex (which has become part of our day-to-day routine) is more of it. when she touches my tummy, or squeezes it, or pokes it, i think it triggers those mental connections, more than physical ones...

if that makes any sense?

just a quick update... i am now 100 lbs heavier than before my gain. my gf has casually thrown out the idea of 300 lbs as a new milestone, which would be double the weight i was around the time we met!
i feel powerless to do anything to avoid it, to be honest.
and i think i really may be past the point of no return. while working from home for the last little while, i thought i would try and eat healthy/eat less while di was still going out to work... but i can't resist the junk food, the treats! i have a normal portion of something, and then immediately i go and have double that (or triple)! it's like i have been conditioned.
i guess 300 here i come?

yes, i am surely enjoying it.. it is only when i have a moment of realization, like when i wake a see my dome of a belly in front of me, that i wonder, how did this happen?

she delights in my transformation, and taunts me with what to expect in the future - the latest being how she expects to see me waddling by the end of the summer!

i loved reading this, and relate to it on some level... i am at the point where i am fat and flabby enough that i would be too embarrassed to go back to the gym. the people i knew there when i was fit would see how out of shape and weak i have become.
while i am not being "forced" so much, my girlfriend is coercing me into gaining. little things, like she'll order dessert when we go out to eat, take a bite, and give it to me to finish it. she knows i'll do whatever she asks!