AltNubisque:
Hello there I'm wondering if my desire for humiliation is normal. Like as I am right now I'm thin but I want to be treated as if I'm a hundred pounds heavier And I'm wondering if its normal? My frame feels like it would be more bottom heavy with little belly. It's like a little fantasy I'm having and I'm have doubts.
Having sexual desires or fantasies is normal, no matter what they are. Kinks don't really *mean* anything objectively. Psychologically our brains just fire off some synapses that connect some specific thing with our sex drives. We don't have much control over that.
What humans tend to do though is experience internalized shame, anxiety, and personalization of their fantasies, hence your question.
Your fantasy is not a reflection of your value or worthiness as a person. It *would* certainly help you to explore and question your desires more deeply; in a curious, non-judgmental way, so you can learn why they work the way they do.
Humiliation of some kind is very common in almost all sexual spaces. So long as you learn what you do like about it, what your limits are, respect others' limits, and engage in it consensually and safely for all parties, you're in the clear!