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Feederism orgins

I just sorta happened upon it when I was looking at body positivity after failing to diet and it stuck its fang into me, been at it since!

I’m up 100 and some odd pounds
2 months

Feederism orgins

It happened long before I was old enough to put a label on it and before I was aware it could have sexual aspects/undertones. Before kindergarten, I was already chubby, and my parents reacted by strictly controlling my food, snacks, and physical activity. Because they made my body an issue, I became hyper aware of physical features like my protruding belly... but I wasn't self conscious. I was intrigued

By elementary school, I was fat, despite my mother's constant false association of fat bodies with some kind of moral failing. I also enjoyed "forbidden" foods, and by the time I was eight or nine, I found a way to build a stash. I had my first intentional gains one summer, and I put on so much weight I was too big for one piece classroom desks. I hit 200 in middle school and 300 in high school. When I got an after school job at a local diner, I had pocket money for belly stuffing. By college, I discovered other aspects of this kink like inflation and bloating, weight gain fiction, etc. Today, I'm very happily engaged to someone who is into feedism too.

Long story short, I think there have to be some elements of body autonomy involved for me, and it's also about embracing who I am and loving me for me. The smallest I've ever been as an adult was 190, and I didn't feel happy at that size. I'm currently in the 525 to 535 range. If I didn't have health concerns I'm trying to mitigate, and if I could stay mobile, I'd happily go for 600, but that's not in the cards for now. Maybe down the road!
2 months

Feederism orgins

For me, it was definitely watching the blueberry scene in Willy Wonka and loosing my mind as a consequence. I think, when I got older, I wanted to see if it was actually possible to expand like that. A quick few YouTube searches and the discovery of Oncedeli, and then I guess things snowballed from there.

In terms of identifying more as a feedee and inflatee, that happened when I was in uni. At the time and where I lived, there wasn't really an active inflation community or many people to interact with. I guess the fantasies of helping another to expand, turned into me wanting to test my capacity. All inflators should try inflating themselves, as to know how it feels and how to handle discomfort.

I then made YouTube videos (stopped because I panicked about people doxing us), got into sites like Feabie/here and learnt to accept my kinks more; as needs that should be met, rather than pushed aside. I'm hoping to keep expanding and to learn more from other people's experiences.
2 months