I've told this story in other posts but when I first realized I had this kink I started off as a fat admirer, and was afraid of gaining weight myself. I was in wrestling my freshman year of high school and honestly that led me to a really toxic relationship with food, I don't know if it was extreme enough to be classified as an eating disorder but it was certainly close. Then the pandemic hit later that school year and the only thing that kept me sane was weightlifting. I ended up going from 126 all the way up to 180 in the next two years of just muscle mass. At a certain point I also began getting some belly fat too, and I think something clicked. I was talking with some of my friends who were saying they prefer their partners to be on the chubbier side (both male and female), I was able to realize that I didn't need to have washboard abs to be attractive I could be chubbier and still look good. And after I started letting myself gain weight I realized I actually really enjoyed the feeling of being heavier and now I'm up to 220. I've been at a plateau for most of this year but I'm hoping to push through it soon
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