Extreme obesity

As a death feeder I definitely get off on ruination, but the idea of it can mean different goals and fetishes to different people, so I think this can be a fun topic.

How do you want to be ruined?

Purely aesthetically--stretch marks, changed face, certain hygienic issues, skin so stretched by fat that you'll never look the same without many expensive surgeries, even with weight loss?

Health--ruined joints, permenantly stretched stomach lining, severe hygienic problems, chronic illness, conditions that hinder or prevent weight loss without surgery, permenant cardiovascular damage, lymphoedema, irreversible diabetes, etc?

Psychological--food addiction, binge eating disorder, emotional eating, dependency, broken will, a feeling of uselessness, wasted potential that can never be regained, feeling too far gone, knowing you're so fat that only attractive to someone who wants to assist in your slow suicide?

Why do you want to be ruined?

Does the thing being ruined directly turn you on? Which is to say, it just does and you don't know why. It didn't develope from another fetish, but the moment you saw it in someone else, or it happened by accident to you, you were turned on.

Did it develope from a similar fetish? An overall desire to be controlled, hurt, to please?

Did it develope from a coping mechanism? A way to turn suffering or self hatred into pleasure?

Is it an excuse? Are you scared of your inherent fetish (mobility issues, health issues, or even just becoming obese), and the more ruined you become, the further gone you are, the easier it is to just let it happen? Does having someone destroy your body ALLOW you to get off on it because now the damage is done/irreversible?

Explore your darkness with this one 💝

Oh gosh this one definitely sends my mind in to those dark places. But there is just something about slowly letting my body be completely ruined that does fill me with a thrill. The thought of knowing that once done my body and mind will never fully recover. My feedee desires came as an addition to my abdl fetish. The thought of being diapered and treated like a baby all the while being fed more and more growing dependent on my Dom. Knowing that soon walking would be so hard I would breath heavily. Knowing that I would want to feed my emotions to help feel better while at the same time my body starts to fail under the weight. Its a darker part for sure but its honestly in there.

That third 1 tho

Your post could use an edit, it looks like you doubled up.

I want to ruin my body with lots of stretch marks. And really saggy stretched out skin

Making a mental note to come back to this thread.

It has to be the psychological ruination that really get me going. There's a small part of my brain that alway tells myself I can loose the wieght if I wanted to, or that I'm doing this on purpose so it's not a problem i can't quit. But the bigger I get the more I begin to doubt that. The idea that even if I wanted to loose wieght I couldn't because I've lost the will power is incredibly hot. Almost like I "acted" like a glutton for so long, I became more gluttonous then I ever imagined.

In retrospect I enjoy things things I've "ruined" on my body. Loose skin, stretch marks and so on. It's just never a goal of mine, more like a trophy that reads "look what I've done to myself"

All three. And I wish I knew why.

Same

When I get to super obesity I want all kinds of huge stretch marks. Also no matter what preventative measures I take inevitably I'll struugle with chafed skin and infections under my fat folds. I also look forward to my knees and legs becoming crippled under my obese body. I want showers everydau to be painful and have to be sitting just to make it through