Is it ethical for me to be an FA?/Is it wrong of me to feel attracted to fat women?
Heavens no! Just look at all the women here that are happy with their fat! I know you got burnt, and it can leave quite a mark on you, but don't let the opinion of one woman that was unhappy with her body put you off being an FA- listen to the ladies here instead.
Do I have to tell them that I am a fat admirer or can I just lie and write off my relationships with fat women as due to the "blindness of love?" How do I move forward and make this work?
Do as you want, though I would suggest honesty. Some women will respond positively, some negatively. That's how life is. But for the opposite end of the spectrum that you haven't experienced, I would suggest listening to all the women here that are very happy being fat and having guys attracted to them.
13 years