Bakuryu wrote
So I'm not a gainer? I tried recently to just focus on me gaining wait in a fantasie and I liked it. I can't picture myself skinny. I have read the stories on here ive been focusing on bhm male x male some had mutual gaining which I really liked. I keep telling myself I want to get fatter and no other part of me disagrees it seems. I'm just worried what other people (mainly my friends) will think if I get reakly fat on top ofhaving a fat boy friend if that ever happens. I also am worried about health my family has a history of high blood pressure and heart attacks. And last but not least I have scholiosis.
Sounds to me like you're a full on mutual gainer/feedee. Just from what you've posted it looks like, to me, that your fantasies center around yourself growing as much as they do another person.
Though I don't know exactly what you're going throughso I can't say anything right out *and I'm not a therapist either* this is all for you to discover on your own. No one can tell you what you are but yourself.