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ok so here goes...

I'm 31 and feel like i wasted a great deal of my life finding out what i want to do with it. I've had several jobs, all which sucked, and I am insecure about the fact that it's taking me so long to get my ass settled.

I try to be nice to others, even when I don't like them because I'm afraid of being rejected.

I have a hard time connecting with people. I don't know how to open up to new people and be honest about myself, again because of fear of rejection.

my mother died a few years ago. After her divorce she started drinking heavily and because this excessive alcohol usage she weakened herself to the point that it killed her. I partly blame myself for not trying to stop her from drinking.

1. im an ass because i dont like letting people in, ive been bunred wayy too many times.
2. in my heart i just want to help people
3. i think about leaving this site everyday
4. i waffle between gaining and dropping all the weight about 3 times a week

This seems to be an American thing because I have never heard a girl from any other country have a problem with it.

I guess its ok if most American men are circumcised, but, at least in Australia, it tends to be more of a minority.

o.O

i have really low self confidence. one on one, im usually ok, but otherwise im really not. once im comfortable with someone or something, them im fine, but taking that first step is really difficult for me lately.

Anyone else want to totally see this happen now? Or was that the idea all along?

Admin Mode: Removed some posts. Just a reminder for everyone to remain respectful to each other, thank you.

Funny, Women really, really confuse me.

I put things of until the last minute... and now, as the thing become more important, I put them off even more

I'm in my head too much - thinking of doing things that I want to but never will

I've also got a very addictive personality... if it's not food, it's money

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My confession is that I am not sure if I have any friends anymore.