mones sunu wrote:
I HAVE felt that way before but I've long since given it up, not only because it's a waste of time, but also because I have to consider impacts that my fetish has had on me other than sexual frustration, which, granted, yeah there's been that too. Here's one thing, for example: I'm a straight, white, middle-class male. There isn't a whole lot about my demographic information that isn't something like society's default. I've made a lot of decisions in my life that have put me at odds with what is expected but most of it didn't come until after really confronting my fetish and realizing that the aforementioned "defaults" are bullshit. I CAN'T change, so when confronted with anything that tells me I'm wrong, I feel it in my heart that I can say "No, YOU are wrong." This isn't a choice, this is something that comes from so deep inside of me that it pervades everything I do, and if I can't accept it I can't accept any other part of me. My utter failure to deny this part of me as a teenager has helped or maybe even forced me to accept other parts of myself as well.
Another thing is that yeah, I'm a feeder, whether I like it or not, but that doesn't mean anyone else has to know it if I don't want them to. Not that anyone should be in the (pantry?) but we feeders sometimes like to mention that society is so unaccepting of our ways... but let's get real, any discrimination most of us face is a joke compared to what other demographic minorities face, including the fat people that we adore, and all we need to do to not face it just simply not say anything.
True, to wish for a more even proportion of feeders and feedees is probably legitimate, although it's never specifically been a problem for me. But anything else that's really a problem for me as a feeder is probably more a problem caused by being any kind of sexual being. No, I don't wish I wasn't a feeder - and I just hope to someday find a feedee who can also not wish I wasn't a feeder with me.
Not going lie, this helped alot. I was thinking on and off about whether I wanted to go through with my preference with my next relationship. After reading this I'm certain now that I'm going for it and going to stop rejecting my taste in women. I'm 20 now and only a couple months of seeing everyone mature around me and being around more accepting people it's safe to say that i'm getting closer to being me. If by the time im 21 or 22 I'm going out with my ideal woman and "friends" chose to judge me, then are they friends? nope. This helped alot and I thought I was the only one who started to feel this way, thanks man.