Gaining

I've always been fat, so I've never felt like "right, time to work it off". But I am trying to be "fit", fit however not meaning slim. Merely in better health, so I've started doing yoga and lifting weights.

On to something more related to your query. I'm very happy with my weight and body at the moment, and I don't think I'd ever really want to lose a large amount of weight. At least willingly, I could be compelled to shed some blubber for health reasons. But as long as I'm healthy I intend to be very fat. I don't think I'd enjoy being thin.

I haven't had this problem myself but it's very common to be conflicted. Some people get less conflicted as they gain, but others never seem to get over it.

And of course if you have a feeder that can help!

Well certainly if you lose control it gives you license to eat and gain which if you're into that anyway is a big plus.