I have been here for a while and have posted pictures, but I'm just now trying to introduce myself. I apologize for starting off like this.
I've had a fetish for, and an obsession with gaining weight most of my life, and derive sexual gratification from becoming fatter. No one in my life knows, and when I start gaining, I know that people are judging, or pitying me for letting myself go, and try to cover it up. In a way I try to "cover my shame". I've had to deal with this for so long, being ridiculed for being chubby as a kid, and hearing so many terrible things about fat people. Even though I love gaining and it makes me feel fulfilled, I have become ashamed of being the walking taboo that I am, and I think that if I tell anyone who doesn't share my fetish about this, that they will surely just judge me, and stop talking to me, because every time they see me, they will only see the fetish. I just don't know how many people out there have the same fetish, or at least in the way that I deal with it, and I feel like an abomination. I just want to know where I stand on this site. Am I alone?
I've had a fetish for, and an obsession with gaining weight most of my life, and derive sexual gratification from becoming fatter. No one in my life knows, and when I start gaining, I know that people are judging, or pitying me for letting myself go, and try to cover it up. In a way I try to "cover my shame". I've had to deal with this for so long, being ridiculed for being chubby as a kid, and hearing so many terrible things about fat people. Even though I love gaining and it makes me feel fulfilled, I have become ashamed of being the walking taboo that I am, and I think that if I tell anyone who doesn't share my fetish about this, that they will surely just judge me, and stop talking to me, because every time they see me, they will only see the fetish. I just don't know how many people out there have the same fetish, or at least in the way that I deal with it, and I feel like an abomination. I just want to know where I stand on this site. Am I alone?
10 years