This is a very confusing topic for me. I have had bulimia in the past and even now I can have random periods of bulimic behaviour however I do love feederism and tend toward being a feedee. I am not an active gainer but the thought of being fed/stuffed by another person is quite a turn on. I have had one feeding session with a feeder which I loved but I dont think I could allow myself to do it on a regular basis. I admire BBWs, SSBBWs and people who have gained a lot of weight but at the same time I admire people who have lost a lot of weight.
Sometime I think that being a feedee(or the fantasy of) is so erotic that it is equal to the 'high' I get from restricting or purging, and thats why i can be attracted to both ends of the spectrum.
I dont think anyone who hasn't had an eating disorder can truly understand such a complex relationship with food and weight. But then again it confuses me too.
I would love to hear from anyone who is in a similar situation... if there are any.
Sometime I think that being a feedee(or the fantasy of) is so erotic that it is equal to the 'high' I get from restricting or purging, and thats why i can be attracted to both ends of the spectrum.
I dont think anyone who hasn't had an eating disorder can truly understand such a complex relationship with food and weight. But then again it confuses me too.
I would love to hear from anyone who is in a similar situation... if there are any.
10 years