Gaining

I used to weight 295, but I didn't like it. It felt like when girls grow out their bangs. I either needed to gain 50 pounds to or lose 50 pounds. I lost 50 (real life choices). I wasn't fat enough to fully identify as a fat guy, but not skinny at all. Know what I mean?

P.S. - I think would have happily gone up the 50 if I was older and more established, but I had goals.

Interesting. I know some people have a phase where friends and families nag them. Then they gain a bit more and everyone gives up and quits nagging. I don't think that's quite the same thing you're talking about but it's close!

I'm usually about 260 and long time ago I lost a lof of weight and got to 200. I didn't like it... looked like starved down fatty. Since then I was hitting 275 lbs but didn't hold it and now I'm 260 again.

When returned from vacation - I noticed that I have less fat (with weight unchanged) and results of visiting gym last year are more visible - that looks nice and makes me think about continuing this way... making muscle to replace fat.

As for getting fatter - I like it, but I'm bad at doing this alone. So I'm thinking about leaving it until I meet someone who'd share my fetish and hopefully help me with gaining.

So thats basically my current vectors for you to compare. The point is - just do what you feel most comfortable for you in current situation.