Fat experiences

angelhoney:
I�ve known ever since I was a little kid, I would stuff pillows under my dress and fantasize about being force fed. I think it has much to do with my mom being very restrictive of my diet, she never let me eat candy or junk food as a kid or teenager.

sarabear25:
I remember being very young and I would get secretly excited every time certain cartoons would get fat in different episodes or movies. I still remember which ones haha.

I also would try on my clothes that I had naturally outgrown and stuff pillows in them to feel fatter.

Mainly I remember having a fantasy that I would be abducted by aliens and force fed until I was huge for their scientific purposes or to be eaten (although I'm not into vore as an adult).

I was also usually attracted to the chubbier boys in school.

I think it stemmed from me being overweight during childhood and feeling like I had to normalize it or make it positive to stop feeling bad about it. I felt like people were also judgemental if you had crushes on fat boys.

I ended up having an eating disorder around 10 or 11 and again in high school, which I still struggle with the psychological effects of that at times, but it helped me immensely to find other like minded people online who confirmed that I was never crazy haha

angelhoney:
I�ve known ever since I was a little kid, I would stuff pillows under my dress and fantasize about being force fed. I think it has much to do with my mom being very restrictive of my diet, she never let me eat candy or junk food as a kid or teenager.

sativah_sauce:
Yeah I had a similar experience and have fantasised about being fat and force fed for as long as I can remember. It was something i was very ashamed of as a kid which is where i think the force feeding fantasy came into it, to deter shame by having someone else do it to me 'against my will' ~ sure.. Hahaha also my parents were very restrictive with what I ate and made junk food a reeeaaally special treat

RosieBonBon:
I had completely forgotten until reading this thread that I also used to stuff pillows up my nightdress, in secret, when I was perhaps around six or seven years old. I also had a really healthy diet growing up, with next to no junk food. No need for pillows now though - my massive gut takes care of that.

Thislittlepiggy:
I remember doing the same thing with pillows and bedsheets. I would also stand on the bathroom scale and then weigh myself holding big bottles of bleach (or whatever was heaviest under the bathroom sink )to watch the number on the scale go up.