Fat experiences

I'm trying not to get sucked into the 'numbers' on a scale thing.
Everyone seems to show fat in different places, so I'm going to simply gain until I like what I see, regardless of what a set of scales might display.

I'm experiencing exactly this dilemma. Having accidentally put on ten pounds toward the end of last year, my wish to lose them again wrestled with my wish to put on another ten to the degree that the fantasy was beginning to feel intrusive. So to satisfy the latter, I decided to allow myself to just go nuts, but within a very strictly defined window of time, after which I would cut back down to my pre-winter weight.

So, over a period of seven days (my allocated gaining period) I consumed between 7,000 and 9,000 calories a day. The results were pretty amazing. On the morning of day 8 the scales were up 5 pounds.

Of course, this led to the inevitable desire to continue.

And so i did continue. I'm now up ten pounds and I don't think I'm going to be able to stop. Several times over the last two weeks I've made the decision to go into reverse. But then, perhaps during some mundane, everyday activity, I notice that I'm fatter, and suddenly I'm engulfed by the erotic tidal wave and all I can think about is adding calories. On Tuesday I took a 4,000 calorie lunch break because my pants were feeling a little tight. Insane.

Another 'addictive' aspect is also the fact that, after so many days of overeating, my capacity for food has increased and I'm constantly hungry.

It is kind of easy to do. For some reason when I get fatter I crave fast food also.

[quote]Getting chubby:
Not trying to gain but gained 3 lbs last week[/quote

I definitely know what you mean...for the last 3-4 months without trying just naturally happened was eating more and more every week. I have t weigh d this much for 2-3 yrs. when I was intentionally gaining. This past week I have been away for business and have absolutely had such a huge appetite and craving food all the time. I literally have been eating 3 times as much as I was just 4 months ago. I will be coming back home after not seeing my wife for a week and I am sure I have gained close to 7+ lbs. I just went to grab a quick bite on my rental car.....Taco Bell. Last time I had a chalupa cravings box finished it and was still starving on Thursday. So I just grabbed two of them .....I wonder if I will finish them or struggle with finishing.

I wonder if my wife will be in shock seeing my over indulgent fattening week of work away.

You are a Fabulous gainer.And obviously this desire is part of you.Your Calorie count posts are wonderful. I think you should think about a different doubling. Double your starting weight at your job.220.How about it?

My experience with it so far has been somewhat addicting. I rarely feel a sense of satisfaction unless I consume a LOT of calories, ideally at least 4,000. And the desire for the ability to eat more.

When I started, I took it slow.. that I wanted to see what 10 to 15 more would look and feel like.

But every time I either reached my goal or close, it hasn't seemed like enough.

I've also noticed that I actually enjoy eating more often than not now, ever since I gained weight. I now crave fattier (and ultimately more delicious) food, and some more of it than I used to. I eat dessert, candy, and other sweets more often now. This is fun, and I don't want to stop. Maybe when I feel more satisfied with my size I'll drink less cream and take it easier on the half & half, but I still crave triple patty burgers with bacon and I don't think I ever want to stop.

I also feel a sense of satisfaction each time I've added another inch to my thighs and elsewhere, or whenever I've graduated to a larger clothing size.

At first I was dismayed by the starter belly I've started to grow, but I think I've come to like it. I even find myself sometimes inadvertently rubbing it when no one is looking.

Of course, there's other motivating factors.

- When I started, I really was far too skinny.
- In the U.S., if you're a man it's better to be overweight or even slightly obese than it is to be skinny. Most folks have at least a little bit of soft flab around their midsections too. The average American white male, aged 20-59 is, as of this writing is 5'9", weighs about 202 lbs, and has a 40" waist or slightly larger.
- Most happy couples with a fat woman have a fat man, so gaining weight should improve my ability to date and ultimately marry a fat woman.
- Some women get self-conscious if she eats or orders much more food than her date, boyfriend, or husband. The heavier I get, the more I need to eat. Of course, this may just be an excuse for me to eat more and grow heavier.

My current goal is around 170, but I suspect I may not want to stop there. On some days I dream of weighing 220. At that point I would hopefully have a large, soft gut, thick arms great for hugging, and chunky, stout legs that I would feel confident showing off in shorts.

Even if one were to reach their goals it becomes really difficult to avoid gaining more. It becomes a subconscious desire with an off switch that is well hidden.