Certain cartoons did it for me. Charlotte's Web, and Pigs Is Pigs specifically - made me want to be able to just eat and eat until I became fat. Hansel and Gretel too. At age 5, I thought it would be awesome to be locked in a cage and forced to get fat. With the caveat that I'd eventually escape, but at least I'd be able to divert responsibility when I turned up shaped like a beachball.
When I was about 8 years old, my family went out to dinner at an all you can eat buffet. I was a tiny kid, but I kept going back for more. I think my parents were surprised more than anything. I fell asleep in the back seat with a sore, distended tummy - and oddly loved how it felt.
In high school, I was more attracted to chubby girls than anything.
Post high-school, I started to research more on the web - mostly ways to get fat, because I was convinced there were tricks, or like OTC pills I could utilize to gain rapid weight. I eventually found websites like Dimensions and a few others that eventually vanished. FantasyFeeder came later, followed by Feabie.
Ultimately, I think I've been a feedee since as long as I can remember, but I'm not quite sure when I realize I liked thicker girls.
5 years