Hi. I'm a 25yo gay man, I'm 175cm (5'7'&apos and I weight 83kg (183lbs), so I'm just overweight. The thing is that ever since I can remember I've been attracted to fat men and have fantasized of getting pretty big myself. I guess it is part of my sexuality since even though I've tried getting rid of this desire and being slim or athletic, It's something that always comes back to my mind and I'm not fully convinced that is the type of body I want.
I've been fit (for a couple months some years ago) and I absolutely loved my body, I felt good looking and secure but I kept on fantasizing about getting fat and I've been fatter (90kg) and even though I secretly loved my body, I felt ashamed about it as well. But right now, this inexplicable urge to get fat has gotten stronger and stronger and I've been wanting this so bad for years. I would like to be morbidly obese and feel my loose skin jiggle, grow moobs, a bigger belly, a fat pad... and of course, eat a lot. Being obese is something I deeply desire to experience.
I haven't dared so far mainly because of fear. I'm afraid of being rejected, people making fun of me, I'm afraid of feeling ashamed of my own body... I've been thinking about facing that fear and just gain weight, just let my self go... But I also worry about my health. My dad is prediabetic and has high blood pressure and an uncle of mine had esophagus cancer strongly related to him being morbidly obese and his lifestyle. I guess I can get fat while eating a decent amount of sugar and salt and having reflux under control... I guess I could be relatively healthy... But I don't know if I should just go for it and do what I've always wanted to do if I'm so scared of the consequences and how could I take a first step. I'd like to gain eventually, maybe I don't have to go to the extreme of becoming a superchub and risking my own life... How can I know when I'm ready? For the gainers/feedees out there, how did you make up your mind? Thank you.
I've been fit (for a couple months some years ago) and I absolutely loved my body, I felt good looking and secure but I kept on fantasizing about getting fat and I've been fatter (90kg) and even though I secretly loved my body, I felt ashamed about it as well. But right now, this inexplicable urge to get fat has gotten stronger and stronger and I've been wanting this so bad for years. I would like to be morbidly obese and feel my loose skin jiggle, grow moobs, a bigger belly, a fat pad... and of course, eat a lot. Being obese is something I deeply desire to experience.
I haven't dared so far mainly because of fear. I'm afraid of being rejected, people making fun of me, I'm afraid of feeling ashamed of my own body... I've been thinking about facing that fear and just gain weight, just let my self go... But I also worry about my health. My dad is prediabetic and has high blood pressure and an uncle of mine had esophagus cancer strongly related to him being morbidly obese and his lifestyle. I guess I can get fat while eating a decent amount of sugar and salt and having reflux under control... I guess I could be relatively healthy... But I don't know if I should just go for it and do what I've always wanted to do if I'm so scared of the consequences and how could I take a first step. I'd like to gain eventually, maybe I don't have to go to the extreme of becoming a superchub and risking my own life... How can I know when I'm ready? For the gainers/feedees out there, how did you make up your mind? Thank you.
4 years