General

Always a little surprised with the lack of FA's and gainers who are into the supreme mega squishiness that comes with fat bodies that have lost weight. It's like making love to melted ice cream.

I've been skinny my whole life, so I'm trying to gain weight to see what it feels like. My goal is to become overweight by BMI standards and to make by abs disappear and then lose all the weight, but I'll admit the idea of losing control completely turns me on.

When I first gained 80 lbs I thought I would lose it. At first it worked out and I did lose most of the weight, but then I gained it all back quickly. Just felt hungry all the time and missed eating, stuffing, feeling fat. After that, I tried losing once again and dropped 60 lbs... but then gained it all back even more quickly. Now, here I am a fatty that cannot stop eating and being a fatty, haha. My fit days are over, even though I sometimes think about trying to get fit again.

yep. planning on getting to 200 and enjoying that for a bit of time, and then losing. gaining is fun but I don't think I want to be that size forever. Don't know yet if I will try to get back to my start weight, however.