NakaiLovesBlubber:
sometimes, I'll eat food to gain weight, or something of that nature. And then later that day I masturbate, and hate the thought of gaining and really want to shed pounds. Is this just post nut regret? I think I'm at the point where I've realized getting big may not be for me. but hey, I still like big girls
This is just my thought, but here's my best guess.
You keep coming back to it, right?
This tells me you don't hate the thought of gaining, but that you
love it. What you seem to hate is that you do love it. But perhaps you still feel shame. That on some level, you aren't supposed to love it, but hate it. Then those feelings come bubbling up to the surface after the feeling of being turned on is gone.
This tells me that while it may take a long time, the easiest thing is to accept it. And the sooner you accept it, the better and the happier you'll be.
I often regret that it took me far too long to accept this. What if I accepted this earlier?
Another thing that helps is to realize the average American man aged 20-59 weighs around 202 lbs last I checked. And 250 isn't all that uncommon. 300+ may be less common but it's still common enough no one thinks twice. You'd have to gain a lot before you really stick out in public.
Hopefully something I said is helpful.
