Gaining weight turns you on, but how do you feel after you've pleasured yourself? Do you still wish you were fat? If not, then it's best to keep gaining as a fantasy.
If you ask "should I gain?" on here, everyone is going to tell you to do it (and, of course, chronicle it for all of us), but you have to remember that you will be carrying around that fat body 24 hours a day. Someone who, say, likes dressing in women's clothes can do it and pleasure themselves and then go out and live a normal life. If you're fat, people will see it every day and will not know you deliberately did it.
It's a hard decision, especially since the common attitude towards sexuality nowadays is "if it feels good, do it" as long as it doesn't harm someone else. However, there are physical and social consequences to gaining weight that you will have to consider and eventually deal with if you do decide to gain.
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