amijustcurious:
As an experiment during quarantine, I've put on about 20lbs. Given my height, this isn't a huge change, but I figured it would give me the chance to see if I actually liked being bigger/gaining.
I've really enjoyed the feeling of getting bigger and how that size feels, but I'm really unhappy about where my body is holding the extra pounds. Much of the weight has settled on my calves, arms, and face, which are basically the last places I wanted.
I realize that this sounds pretty vain, but it has me considering losing the weight. After all, I was doing this because I found the idea hot, but I'm not enjoying half of the experience. So now I'm trying to choose whether or not I should stick it out and hope my body evens out, or go ahead and lose the weight (I didn't hate myself thin or anything, just thought I'd like this more).
If it's not working for you, there's nothing wrong with stopping, whether it's for now or for good. See how you feel down the road, things could change in the future.
