Extreme obesity

I just wanted to binge, and i couldn't lose the weight. And repeat...

Just, like whatever was at the college cafeteria I guess...

I think my decision is like most gainers. As I get FATTER I just want to get even FATTER. I enjoy watching my big Fat belly grow BIGGER and Bigger.

I have stuck at 220 for a long time and long the belly and ass fat I have so far. I'm obviously not even close to morbidly obese, but I want to be just because of what I imagine I would look like in the future. I want a lot of fat to play with. That's for sure.

Honestly I always wanted to be huge. Several of my parents friends were quite fat and I wanted to look like them.
The end goal was originally 300 and it's become bigger over time, but I always intended to be huge.

It was a natural progression for me in which I let the greed become a mind of its own. I moved away with a woman to change things up and we went all in into this life to the point that I had really not had that "I am fat" moment until I caught my gut hanging below my shirt in Walmart and by then I was too addicted to the food and the results

When I started to embrace the lifestyle and find myself more and more attractive and manly the bigger i was getting.

I've always wanted to be fat, since I was about 14. I remember my best friend's sister was huge and I recall mentioning to my parents that I didn't care if I got as big as her. I was chubby at the time, and gaining weight because my appetite increased and I wanted to fatten myself up. Sadly though my grandmother made me lose some weight, and so I stayed around 125-130 up until I found this site. xD That was in 2010, and I was 20 then. I started purposely gaining again and got up to around 170 but at the time I didn't have a lot of money, so I couldn't indulge as much as I wanted to. I also stopped gaining at this point, but then in 2016 I got the urge to gain again. That time I gained up until I was around 195 or so but started to lose interest in gaining... Then last year I had a bad reaction to something and I started taking steroids to help with the reaction. I ended up gaining about 10 lbs due to my appetite increasing. Then I started transitioning back in August, and lately I've been giving into my increased appetite from that. I'm up to around 230 lbs now and I'm still gaining. I'm also very short so my bmi is at 44 so I'm already in class iii obesity.

Literally became one of those types feeders who when unable to feed someone, turns it in on themselves over a period of time. Years back growing up, I never would have opted for this until the triggers were no longer dormant from inside.
When my own enjoyment of food et al was as enjoyable as my attraction to ssbbw/ussbbw I kind of knew it was a matter of time no matter how long.

For quite a few feeders, this is how they waddle into this space not realizing that they like getting fat just as much as assisting someone with getting fatter. It is the natural progression of this lifestyle of ours. Mine happened when I had someone introduce the possibility of purposely getting fat and I jumped into it and even she said with how I saw fat that eventually I would turn it in on myself and I might like that even moreso. Our younger selves, might have ran away from the option of getting fat but when you get into your middle ages that is when you are like "to hell with it" and you say why not get fat ? I could have never imagined that I would have been this obese in my teens and twenties.