Fat experiences

Hi!
I’m very interested in hearing people’s experience going from thin to fat.
I’m mostly interested in hearing about this from a female perspective, but if there are men/non binary that want to share their experience, that’s okay too!

I myself am very conflicted about gaining (I have a history with anorexia. If you want to know more, I suggest reading my other forum posts or sending me a message).
However the idea of gaining and being fat has a certain allure for me. I would like to hear more about how your mindset changed when you became fat/are getting fat(ter). Are there any gainers/feedees that didn’t like their body when they were skinny but now love their fatter body? Did it feel freeing to no longer worry about what you eat or that people might notice your belly?

I’m also interested in hearing your experience if you regret gaining or miss being skinny.
I just want to try and understand what it would mean for me if I ever decide to take the plunge and become fat.

Thanks in advace to anyone willing to share their experiences x

Hi
I don't have nothing new to say about the pressure we have to ve thin, "in shape", especially to someone with an anorexia history.
What I can do is share my personal experience. I've changed between fit and fat several times in my life. I was educated to feel better when fit, but it's not exactly how I've felt. I always felt better when fat, better mood, stronger sex drive. But bullied by friends, family. And therefore guilt.
That's why I've decided to close my ears to everybody and embrace my nature. I don't want to live controlling my meals, feeling guilt and missing the great feeling I get from my fat body.
I don't know if everybody has the same good feeling when fat. This is my experience.
I don't plan to get as much fatter as I can. I just want to be free to eat what and as much as I want. I want to feel good with my fat body. I want the great feeling of touch my soft body. I want my fat body desired and shared. For while it's been a lonely experience, unfortunately.
I hope you can get something from it.
Respect yourself and go for what you want.
Kk

You know I can't really call myself fat, but I have gained and lost a few times by now, even if not that much. I also feel more comfortable when I weight more, more sex drive, better sex performance, and just pleasure from feeling my expanded body, like feeling rolls over my legs for example.

The difference with me is that I don't "let myself go". and I don't control myself to be fit. My nature is to tend to be fit and gaining is extremely demanding and tiresome. Still I've managed to put on some pounds, and everytime I've gained I've felt better with myself, even if it's been uncomfortable to hear degrading comments from loved ones.

Thanks for sharing! It totally understand the fear of being seen as ugly and unlovable if you gain. I’m glad you went for what you wanted and are happy now!

For me it was really freeing. I’ve put on over 100lbs. It’s great to not have to care about what I’m eating, or if people are judging me.

But I did struggle for a while, the first 30lbs were shocking. But I feel like once I crossed into being properly fat I stopped caring and just enjoyed my new body.

Chatting to other people who have gained really helped

I have a very recent history with anorexia, in fact I just started recovering about a year and a half ago. I am not fat, at least not yet, but I did gain 45 pounds in the last year. So I can say something about the gaining experience at least.

For me, it is a wonderful feeling of having a real, physical body. I enjoy moving, I feel no pain when I sit, and my mind isn’t occupied with poisonous anorexic thoughts. I love my curves - and I have some curves finally, I am finally successful in my romantic life, dating polyamorously, with very lovely men at my side who love me for who I am, and not for my model-like emaciated „perfect“ non-body.

Gaining is quite difficult for me. I learned to eat huge amounts by now but my metabolism is - despite many, many years of anorexia - high as f***. So I need to use tricks like heavy cream to gain at all. But I love the feeling of being alive that I have now. And I think gaining more will give me even more of this wonderful feeling. I do not regret gaining this pounds at all, and the only thing that I mourn is the fact that it is more difficult to find Gothic Lolita clothing and short shorts in bigger sizes and from a previous gaining experience (yeah I had a relapse, that’s anorexia, it never leaves completely because it is actually born of the wish to control the uncontrollable world, and I have still to reach the weight I once already was at) I know that I am now in the highest size range of my favorite brands. Not impossible, though. I am also adept at sewing so if I can’t buy it then I can make it. But still, cute clothes are more available in smaller sizes. Sadly.

Thanks for sharing!
I totally get that the first 30lbs felt the hardest, I’m most scared for those too. I hope that once I reach a certain point of fatness, people will no longer see me as a thin girl that let go. I hope that being fat will free me of my body issues

You look absolutely gorgeous btw x

Thanks for sharing! I know it’s hard, especially if you’re anorexia was recent. I’m sorry to hear you had a relapse, I hope you will soon reach a happy weight.
I get the frustrations with being smaller than you used to be. I too have weighted more in the past.

Have you gained intentionally last time you weighted more? If I may ask

No not at all. It was more of the unwanted result after having to gain as part of my anorexia recovery. After eating to gain for a over a year, it’s hard to change your eating to what will stabilize your weight. Especially bc you don’t want to fall back in to old patterns. Eventually my weight stabilized a bit above my target weight.