Fat experiences

Oh Yes I love it! It’s such a turn on for me

I just hate going to see the doctor in general, lol! But now that I have a less judgemental, less anti-fat doctor, it is much more pleasant. But I don't get a thrill out of it.

Being told how fat I've got being a turn on totally depends on the person. If it's my partner, or friends who are sympathetic it can be fun. It is nice when you know they mean it in a kind way.

With family and strangers it's usually mentioned in a negative and judgemental way, so not so nice.

I feel you on this post. I have a female doctor who I suspect might like obese men because she loves telling me what to eat to keep adding subcutaneous fat to my body.

I used to actually want women that I dated to comment but as I got in my forties; I am more aroused by my own fatness so now it is about what new roll can I grow or can my moobs sag more.

As far as family/friends and strangers, if they are not on board with my fatness or any that I may add then I just won't deal with them. I don't pay attention to someone who doesn't know me says about my fatness.

This was the biggest change I needed to make to the programming in my brain. It was not easy for me to get to that point and just be comfortable in my body and push back against what others criticised, particularly family.

But I got there and understood in my heart (it's easier to understand in your brain - it's the heart that takes work!) that fatness has no moral virtues associated with it, I could push away those criticisms that there was something wrong with me for being fat. That was key in not just accepting my fat body, but enjoying it!

I remember almost 9 years back overhearing 2 women behind me saying "..It's ok to be big, but to be struggling like that..it's not good". I was leaving my doctor's office as I was struggling from an injury trying to make my way to the bus stop to sit down a block and a 1/2 away. I was annoyed, defensive..stopped 'walking' and let them pass me by to see if they would say something smart. They didn't though did trigger cravings as I was on my way home.

Thankfully, I reached a point where I embrace it and look to be more jovial or smile depending on the situation.
A nursing assistant and I smiled when she struggled to slide the bar across on the balance beam scale that I appeared to outgrow.
If the doctor who I met for the 1st time, kept the surgery mentions to 3 as opposed to 6, I wouldn't be visiting elsewhere next week.
I can still remember how good that cake tasted while at home later on.
Just feels so free.

I haven’t had any comments really yet, but I have some events planned that I know the people will probably say something.

The first one is my friend, who is a very blunt gal, is coming to visit me this weekend. I last saw her when I was at my lowest weight about 2 years ago (was 170ish then and about 250ish now). Before I lost the weight and got down to 170ish my weight usually hung out around 200ish and even then she’d make comments about my chubby belly. I just know she’s gonna have something to say, especially if we decided to go to the pool.

The other one is I’m supposed to see my mom in about a month. She last saw me at my graduation at the end of April. I was about 230 then and though she didn’t mention anything I saw her several times looking at my gut in my overly tight clothes. She also offered to take me clothes shopping then. I’ve since gained about 25 since then and if my gaining continues like it has I might put on another 10 pounds before then.

I’m scared of what they’ll say as this weight gain has been unintentional, but I’m also kinda excited.

Sounds like some fun in the sun :-) Show off that belly with pride!