I always think that I am thinner than I actually am. It surprises me when I catch a reflection of myself from the side in a picture window when I am walking down the street in a business district. It never fails to amaze me how big my belly is and the silent response always is: Damn, I am really fat!
I‘m at a stage where wide clothes like large polo-shirts still do a pretty good job of concealing my ever growing chubbiness. But the other day we were at a rest area on the motorway and we were walking towards the main building. A very strong, warm wind was blowing in our face. And it pressed that polo shirt against my abdomen as we approached the all-glass building and I saw all that flab reflecting in the window… cool
I recently started making an effort to sit up straight in my desk chair due to shoulder and neck pain. Well, when I do that and scoot forward enough to comfortably reach the keyboard, my belly hits the edge of the desk!
A friend took pics of me in a bikini recently without me noticing, so I wasn't posing whatsoever. It was the first time I realizes that I have really big back rolls now and how fat I overall look including my double chin and face. It was honestly shocking to see how fat I must look to others because I still see myself barely bigger as when I started this journey
I first realized I was finally fat when I couldn't fit onto a ride at the fair with my daughter, and most of the booths at restaurants began shrinking ; ) Had to start ordering clothing online as well since the typical store selection no longer had shirts and pants that fit me