Fat experiences

I reached my goal weight in 2020 and decided to not actively gain. I naturally gained a bit more because of my increased appetite but I had been roughly the same weight for a couple of years now and I thought I was happy with that.

Recently, I took my partner to a meet. They knew I was into feederism and would play with my belly but that was it. After the meet, they said they felt like they were actually a feeder and liked the idea of me getting plumper.

It was so exciting but I feel like I’m so close to losing control and gaining properly again and it scares me a little. I’m still kind of watching what I eat, while my partner brings a lot more snacks and cooks bigger portions for me.

Has anyone else felt like they were losing control after their goal changed and aren’t sure whether to actually continue?

I really thought I wouldn’t get any fatter than 300lbs but I really don’t know anymore and I’m scared to just fully let go

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You’re already 300 what’s some more?

I know it’s so tempting, I’m currently 317lbs and the softness feels great. I just worry I won’t be able to stop

I know I probably couldn't stop, so I just go for MORE. Double what a thin person couldn't finish. A little extra on that. Another helping. Some more after, when no one's looking.

Hah,, I have to apologize because I’m sure you’re looking for real advice from people who have been in your shoes before, and I have never experienced that. The encourager in me just loves soaking in the thought of how you’re living the dream of so many people, and wants to say “go for it!” But it’s not actually helpful 😅

Thanks and yeah, that’s what I’m worried about. I really enjoy feedism but the thought of losing control and being unable to do certain things is worrying. I have spoken to my partner though about this and we are just trying to enjoy it but not full time

Thanks for all the responses I really appreciate them. It’s just really made me think about everything lately!

You have also multiplied your fat cells so it’s tough to slow down once you start

I feel I’m on the cusp of losing control and not sure what will happen next. . Last month crossed 250 at 5’4 and some days it makes me nervous. Never crossed 200 before Covid months thanks to diet pills etc. once I got that close. … and especially after years of family “ concern” about me getting so heavy. Now my husband has openly admitted how much he loves my gain and has been more actively encouraging it… Last night ordered second take home dessert for me behind my back and although I pretended to be dismayed, I ate it on the way home. I don’t want to go back to the old days either…. and I love how much softer and rounder I feel….