Alright, so this happened today, but let's give the requisite context: I am 5'3-ish and when I last weighed myself (I try not to weigh often, personal thing) I was at 245lbs. Admittedly I have a bit of a belly and a significant enough hang that it's hard to shave "down there." Fiance is my same height, he's got this like slimchub/light dadbod going on ever since we moved in in 2020. Over time I began to rub his belly as a form of just general affection, trying not to sexualize it because I genuinely like how he looks regardless of my preferences. And Covid summer gave me a major gain: going from about 190 to my current weight (with 190 being a significant gain from the last time I moved seven years ago, being 125 in 2016). All of this is to say, Covid + a WFH job that both me AND my fiance worked at the time + probably some happy weight means I have gained a LOT of weight in under a decade.
Moving on, I've never talked to him about my preferences so that he doesn't feel pressure to change, but I suspect recently that he's found out what I'm into. A few events suggest this.
First, he recently made me dinner (and he does do most of the cooking), and when he asked me if I want seconds I said that I was happy and satisfied. He smiled, rubbed my belly, and I had a hard time hearing but I think he said "As long as your tummy is full and heavy." Because I've never opened up about this interest to him, I was too paralyzed with surprise to ask him to repeat it. But I brushed it off, because I mean, he PROBABLY just said "full and happy," that makes sense.
The event that spawned me to thinking he might be serious was when we were snapchatting today. I sent him a picture of me in a crop top and a new pair of panties, and he responded with "my big beautiful orgy machine!" (Yes, he really said this, no I don't know why he decided on that turn of phrase.) But I realized that he just called me a BB-whatever, and with how much attention we give each other and our tummies, that just CAN'T be a coincidence.
Then, the final event that pushed me here. We were cuddling in bed and he grabbed a bag of peanut butter cups from our kitchen and handed me a few. I have a really bad sweet tooth, so I tried not to shove them into my mouth but I ultimately got the bag from him and ate a good handful more than he did. During this time, I'm lying down in bed and he's rubbing my belly and smiling at me. I can't help myself, I start giggling at him every time he smiles at me and I meet his gaze. He also definitely rubbed across my belly roll, an area that I have in the past worried about being too big for him to like.
There's also the fact that if I lay my head on his belly, one way or another it usually leads to us sleeping together. I jokingly once said, "I'm testing a theory, that if I lay on your belly we'll end up having sex. So far every time I've done it, that's what happened." And he totally didn't deny, just seemed to laugh it off. But one time he also was letting me play with his tummy when he was puffing in and out, and said "Oh, if only I was the one who could get pregnant between us, so that I could get a big tummy for you."
All this can't be a coincidence, right? It seems like he knows for sure that I have an extra special attachment to bellies, but because of some early conversations in our relationship I've always been worried about rejection if I mention my love of stuffing/wg. My ex was the only one who ever shared this with me, but after we broke up I just thought this thing would be in the closet the rest of my life.
Though admittedly I've been a little less cautious with my "materials" than usual. I have a stable four tabs in my phone on private mode for various things, I have my private Youtube logged into my phone as well, and had a couple of REAL close calls with that since he and I watch Youtube before bed sometimes.
Should I just try to bring it up and see if he feels the same, or has some turn ons of his own in all of this? We're very open sexually, but I've been Fort Knox about my biggest (lol) sexual turn on. I'm just REALLY thinking that the evidence is pointing toward finally telling him.
Moving on, I've never talked to him about my preferences so that he doesn't feel pressure to change, but I suspect recently that he's found out what I'm into. A few events suggest this.
First, he recently made me dinner (and he does do most of the cooking), and when he asked me if I want seconds I said that I was happy and satisfied. He smiled, rubbed my belly, and I had a hard time hearing but I think he said "As long as your tummy is full and heavy." Because I've never opened up about this interest to him, I was too paralyzed with surprise to ask him to repeat it. But I brushed it off, because I mean, he PROBABLY just said "full and happy," that makes sense.
The event that spawned me to thinking he might be serious was when we were snapchatting today. I sent him a picture of me in a crop top and a new pair of panties, and he responded with "my big beautiful orgy machine!" (Yes, he really said this, no I don't know why he decided on that turn of phrase.) But I realized that he just called me a BB-whatever, and with how much attention we give each other and our tummies, that just CAN'T be a coincidence.
Then, the final event that pushed me here. We were cuddling in bed and he grabbed a bag of peanut butter cups from our kitchen and handed me a few. I have a really bad sweet tooth, so I tried not to shove them into my mouth but I ultimately got the bag from him and ate a good handful more than he did. During this time, I'm lying down in bed and he's rubbing my belly and smiling at me. I can't help myself, I start giggling at him every time he smiles at me and I meet his gaze. He also definitely rubbed across my belly roll, an area that I have in the past worried about being too big for him to like.
There's also the fact that if I lay my head on his belly, one way or another it usually leads to us sleeping together. I jokingly once said, "I'm testing a theory, that if I lay on your belly we'll end up having sex. So far every time I've done it, that's what happened." And he totally didn't deny, just seemed to laugh it off. But one time he also was letting me play with his tummy when he was puffing in and out, and said "Oh, if only I was the one who could get pregnant between us, so that I could get a big tummy for you."
All this can't be a coincidence, right? It seems like he knows for sure that I have an extra special attachment to bellies, but because of some early conversations in our relationship I've always been worried about rejection if I mention my love of stuffing/wg. My ex was the only one who ever shared this with me, but after we broke up I just thought this thing would be in the closet the rest of my life.
Though admittedly I've been a little less cautious with my "materials" than usual. I have a stable four tabs in my phone on private mode for various things, I have my private Youtube logged into my phone as well, and had a couple of REAL close calls with that since he and I watch Youtube before bed sometimes.
Should I just try to bring it up and see if he feels the same, or has some turn ons of his own in all of this? We're very open sexually, but I've been Fort Knox about my biggest (lol) sexual turn on. I'm just REALLY thinking that the evidence is pointing toward finally telling him.
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