Meatycake:
Outside of feedism, I am basically asexual
With no interest in vanilla sex nor romance
My only semblance of sexuality is feedism
I default as ace when feedism is not an option
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Are any of you also feedist/ ace?
Not exactly, but close, and i may be using the terminology differently than you.
Back in the mists of time in the 1970s when i was an adolescent, i
was ace, by modern standard definitions: zero romantic and sexual desire. I felt nothing when society’s media of the time held up images of women who were supposed to be attractive (think of cartoon wolves whistling and pounding the club/bar table at the sight of what was supposed to be a sexy [cartoon] woman, plus the occasional Playboy magazine which crossed my path, etc. etc.).
Given the social programming and few publicly defined options of ways to be at the time, i honestly thought i might be gay. But i felt the same zero towards men as women. I happily concluded i was asexual, and went on with my highly cerebral, mostly emotionally void life—and at the time i
was happy that way.
Then came that fateful day at the public library. I was a high school junior, there researching a report (for U.S History, i think. Doesn’t matter). Within a second of seeing my first-ever SSBBW around my age, there was an instant
EXPLOSION of what in hindsight were raging passion/lust/sex hormones. At the time i had not had any such prior experience, even mild, so i had no idea what was going on, and was terrified.
It’s a longer story told in full, for another time and place. At the time i suppressed all memories of it as an anomaly, reverting to my contented asexual life for a few more years.
Not necessarily feedism, but fatness, has always been necessary for sexual connections and the longer, deeper affectionate romantic connections, for me. I ceased trying to ignore/suppress/work around it many decades ago, instead embracing it as how i am, and being open and honest about it with potential love interests.