I’ve recently started testosterone and that’s jacked my sex drive way up.. so gradually my kink has escalated more and more and it’s getting to a point where it’s not quite working anymore. The urge to give in and just grow and get fatter and fatter is so strong, and ive been trying to fight it for so long. But i’m like, maddenly worried about what people would say and how they’d react (though at the same time it turns me on) and i don’t know what to do, is there a way to keep going on not gain, or do i just have to give in to my deepest want? also it might be important to note that in my experience this is the only thing that really gets me off, so the only thing that will satisfy my horniness in a meaningful way, nothing else does anything, except maybe humiliation but even then its in the context of gaining weight so.. sorry for over sharing, i just feel a bit lost
1 year