Zorah:
Well the thought of being sick and making my quality of life worse sounds so aweful to me that i stopped acting as a feedee and ive lost 10kg and went opposite directions and went to the gym. I still like fat ppl but having medical conditions are so life impairing i see it actually very often when im working in health care. That putted me off from it aswell. I only fantasize about get fat every now and than and I sometimes watch fat content creators online. Or lurk or chat here. Id rather have a different fetish but this is the only truly exciting thing to me..
I also work in healthcare and witnessing firsthand the suffering that diabetes and heart problems can cause definitely scares me away from gaining the way I fantasize.